Janurary 6, 2010

For the last 3 or 4 years, Ali Edwards has come up with a word that she wants to define her year by. This year her word is “Story.” While trying to win free loot I had to think of a word to define my year with, so I came up with the word “FIND.” Which I went on further to describe that I wanted to FIND Jesus and FIND who I was in Christ. So the more I thought about my word for the year being “FIND” the more the phrase “SEEK and you will FIND” has been coming to my mind. So I looked up the complete verse.

Matthew 7:7 (ESV) “Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you.”

ASK, SEEK, and Knock are all active present tense verbs. They are all things that I have to choose to participate in because if I don’t I will not get the results that I am after.

In the six days that I have working on this project, I have realized how passive I have become about my spiritual life. For at least the last 2 year, I’ve just kind of let God do his thing with me and I’ve been pretty content to just go along for the ride. I made a joke in one of my last classes about me producing mediocre work. I spent about 1/3 the amount of time and did about 2/3 of the work as someone else and got a better score because that was the standard I had set for the teacher. When my life is over I don’t want mediocrity to be the standard I set for doing work for Jesus. Just kind of passively walking through life, I think I starting to make that change with this picture project. Yes, I had to stage this photo, at first I thought that I was going to miss a day because I didn’t find something, but I want to not be passive anymore so I printed it off and took a picture. I would have loved it if I found the “Passive” on a t-shirt, but who is really proud of the fact that they are passive.

If anyone sees me making a passive move or decisions, call me on it. But please do it nicely.

I just thought I would let everyone know that it has been 3 and half weeks since I have bitten my nails. I have had to cut them really short a couple of times because I was really tempted, but I have not bitten them.

I read four chapters in Exodus, but I reread some of the stuff from yesterday, so does that make me up-to-date. I’m going with yes. My goal was to get further then yesterday. I am planning on listening to all of Numbers. I have heard a couple people tell me it is hard to get through. I don’t want to quit, because quitting would be a passive move!